Last week, I read a book about discipline that shifted my perspective about promises. While I’m not perfect, I do my best to follow through on the promises that I make to others. I hate letting other people down. This is a great trait and shows respect to other people.
When I read the chapter about integrity, I started thinking about the number of promises that I’ve broken with myself. I often blow off workouts, skip out on my writing commitments, justify why I haven’t submitted writings, or make excuses for why I haven’t worked on the business side of my creative career.
My reasons (a.k.a. excuses) work against me regularly. When I looked at my behavior through the lens of a friend, I felt sad. If I had a friend like me, I wouldn’t believe her when she said, “I’ll have that ready for you by the end of the week.” On a snarky day, I’d probably roll my eyes and say something like, “Sure you won’t.”
This breakthrough got me looking at my life differently. I want to trust myself as much as others trust me. The only way I can do this is by keeping my promises to myself.
I can’t change everything at once. I mean, I could try, but from previous experiences, it’s the fast track for me falling apart. With that in mind, I focused on two things this week: write for a minimum of three hours a day Monday through Friday and do something active at least 30 minutes a day of the week.
So far, I’ve noticed a positive shift in my attitude toward both activities. I still make excuses, but each time I remind myself these items are important to me. These two changes are my training wheels for future things I want to do. I don’t want to be a bad friend and let myself down.
I want to progress with my big, ambitious dreams as a creative entrepreneur. With that in mind, the best place to start is right where I am.